I feel a little foolish about this and...well...I try talking to my wife about this, but...somehow...I don't think she really understands.
Perhaps no one here will either.
Regardless...I've got to tell somebody. So, here goes...
I love baseball. I love watching it. I love listening to it. And I absolutely LOVE playing it. (Well, for the last several decades, I have played softball...but you get the idea.)
Some of my earliest and fondest childhood memories are my Little League days. No, I wasn't very good. And when I played at all, it was in Right Field. But I LOVED it! I loved the smell of my glove. I loved stepping into the box...rubbing dirt on my hands...and swinging the bat. I loved the tingle you got in your hands when you made contact. Especially when you knew you hit one on the "sweet spot".
I loved hustling down the line and "beating one out". I loved the thrill of stealing second...and sliding head first.
I loved scoring...and getting slapped on the back by teammates.
And I loved playing the outfield.
My early days was Right Field ( that was where they stuck the "not-so-good" players back in the 60's). Fortunately, though, I got better...and faster. I eventually became a Center Fielder. Yeah buddy...it don't get much better than that! Roaming Center Field. BEGGING the opposition to hit it to you. Running down fly balls. Over-the-shoulder catches. Charging grounders...then throwing guys out trying to stretch a single into a double.
Man...I even loved those times when I would run for all I was worth to get to a fly ball...wondering if I was going to make it...followed by that split second decision, "Do I go for it or play it on a hop"...then leaving my feet...watching it nestle into the glove...and then thinking, "Man, this is going to HURT!"
I LOVED that!!!
Well, as the years have passed, I've continued to play. Softball now. Church League Softball, to be exact. (Now, don't get me wrong. This is not church picnic softball. This is modified fast-pitch, VERY competitive softball. I broke my right index finger just last week, as a matter of fact. )
Unfortunately...as much as I love to play, well...my body is having a little trouble keeping up. The fact is...I'm slowing down. And I refuse to play like an old man. So...I gotta quit.
In fact, tomorrow's my last game.
It's gonna be tough. I'm not really looking forward to it.
And something that I forgot to mention...that makes it even harder...
All the years that I have played organized ball, I have never played on a team that won it all. Whatever team I played on, at best, finished somewhere in the middle.
Well, no team, that is...until this team.
We have won the championship the last 2 years in a row. And tomorrow...we go for #3...as we try to cap off an undefeated season.
I told them at the beginning of the season that this was it for me. At that time, it seemed still a ways off. But now...as I look at the clock...by this time tomorrow it'll be over.
So...this is it. Tomorrow night. One more time, I'll take my place (back in Right Field, by the way). To my right, playing Center will be my nephew (who is only 5 years my younger) that I grew up with playing ball. Playing Left will be his son. And playing SS will be MY son.
I plan to soak up every moment. Every play. Every at bat. I want to experience it all.
Well...except...maybe I won't be quite so hopeful that the ball comes my way. Only because I'm afraid things might be a tad "misty" out there...